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Yes, as the title implies, NUS= National University of Selfishness. I don’t know what is those people problem.But, I have inspected alot of selfish people from NUS.

The SEP is the one that makes me so angry the most. I saw the email regarding about the SEP to Edinburgh. So I filled in the forms, mapped the damn modules and travelled all the way to stupid NUS. When I reached S16, I stood there for a long time, outside the office, then i pressed the stupid bell, it took them damn long time to come over. In fact, this Indian girl who came over has a unhappy face, she shot her question at me " what u want?!". Me" I want to hand in SEP form". Then she grabbed the forms from me.
She:"You must let the SEP coordinator sign the forms". Then she handed me the forms back.

So I have no choice, I went out and called the stupid SEP coordinator, the stupid Dr Ong Bee Lian, I called her no. so many times hoping that she would pick up, but she never. Then I went home very sadly and emailed her. Till NOW, since 9 July, she(or he?) didnt reply me at all!

It just saddens me cause’ I want to go for SEP but NUS doesnt give me the damn chance to go. This is the worst university in the world. My sister university is better than this National University of Selfishness. I question the university rankings, I think NTU is much better, as Wei Na has said, they are really efficient.

And the minister say that only very little Singaporeans can go into the National University of Selfishness, because they need foreigners to increase our competition. Pui…it is to INCREASE THE INCOME OF THE STUPID UNIVERSITY.

I dislike National University of Selfishness and Dr Ong Bee Lian.

my memory is so bad nowdays.And I do weird things these days. That are bizzare.

That day I am supposed to show my damn company pass to the security guard. Instead, I show my pass the the public! And I did not think that something is wrong until I walked a few steps , then I realised what I have done. I couldnt help but giggle so I ran to the office!

Secondly, I finally met the "boss" (boss?") called Vittoria. I tot he was a "she". haha! Then he come in and tok to me while I was doing filing.

V: How are you?
Me: Eh…duh..fine? ( note: I say fine cause what the hell..I am fine cant u see!)
V: ………(pause for some time while he was still holding my hand)
Me: ehh..( fake smile)
V: Welcome to EGL.
Me: Thanks!

God..what a stupid thing I have done. It is like that time when I went to CJ’s dinner and dance night. I was talking to his friend’s gf.(G)

G: What are you doing now?
me: What you mean? ehh..I am standing here toking to u?
G: Oh..I mean..studying or working?
Me: ohhh….

damn…it is 2 sides man…

oH NO! How does my company people noes that I am called Christina?

So obvious loh..hahha…Friendster blog or friendster loh!

Weng Chong, if u are reading my blog, I noe the answer…hahahha! Congrats me lehx..:P

Suddenly, I just changed so much in my preferences. My hated become my favourites. So weird.

I saw my dearest spikes shoes in the storeroom. I am so tempted to wear it to do 100m, 200m sprints and feel the wind and the adrenaline rush, but I cant, cause I will have bulky legs, and I am trying to reduce it! But really want to run with my shoes. It really give me the power to sprint.

Anyway, my fav sport now is swimming now. I love swimming. I cant believe it. I finally master the right way to swim breast stroke. in the past, I cant swim correctly. Finally my sister taught me the correct way. Damn! All those instructors suck. They cant even recognise what is the problem with my breast stroke. Dumb dumb!

And I love broccoli and button mushrooms. I still love salmon. Yum! And…I love coldplay and snow patrol. I cant listen to their songs forever. Sigh…

Hmm..I am now working in the Finance dept of a company and it just makes me understand what is "rank", "power" and "money". The company actually pay all the expenses of those high-post people in the company, even in things like pedicure and medicure. I am surprised that they actually pay them for that. Afterall, their salary is damn quite, at least 5 figures kind, yet, such things, the company pay for them? It is really weird. While the lower post people in the company slough their life out, yet they do not enjoy such rights. Even their accommodation is so expensive. My God man..

I realised something after working in various companies in Singapore, that as long as you are an expatriate( correct spelling?), u will usually hold all the high-rank position in the company. And, the company would be happy enough to pay for all your expenses, even with your children school fees. I am not complaining cause’ this is what my bf is experiencing. His school fees are paid by his dad’s company. Yeah. And, something is really important to note here, degrees are IMPORTANT. Very. Graduating with honours, masters…will gurantee u high post even if u have no work experience in such areas. Thus, whoever says work experiences are more essential than academics is bull-shitting. I see it with my own eyes. However, the bad news is that eventually many people will graduate with a degree. So, the aim is to study higher.

After working in accounts and finance dept, I don’t know about my career prospects still. I like numbers. But, dealing with such high amount of money is scary. And, I don’t think it is possible to develop well in these areas. Of course, unless with the cert lah..but I kinda of like finance and accounts, though I just realised that they are actually different. Finance must be good in presentations and understanding I guess. I heard my boss quarrel with a lawyer in the office over the presentation skills. It is complex to me cause’ in order to understand, it is crucial to know at your finger-tips the runnings of the company.

At least, work experience has taught me how to use the different software in accounting and finance.

So people, study hard as you can now…yeah! Jiayou!!!!

This song is by Linkin Park and it rocks to the core. It is probably the best song Linkin Park has done, followed closely by "The End". I think the style has differ.Yup. Btw, this is the song for "Transformers". And as you know, I am crazy over "Transformers". It is the best show that I have watched! Yeah! Of course, "Monsters inc" is also my fav. haha…

I don’t understand something. What is a true friend? And, who are my true friends? Suddenly, I feel lonely. I have many friends, but are they my true friends or just friends? Are friends suppose to be supportive of each other in times of need? I really don’t know. But, what I cant shun off is the "history" still there. Whatever. I think I should live with my own motto. Do my own things. Be happy.

Am I happy?

The movie is very short and the storyline sucks to me. I think it is amusing that the planet is eating up earth for energy resources. And the powerful master is a planet. Then how does the silver surfer come about? The silver surfer looks like human but the planet of course, don’t look like.

I pitied Jessica Alba again, she was once again nude again (Hooray for the guys). Poor thing.

The 2nd one is definitely better than the 1st one which is like a joke than super heroes. More fighting in 2nd one for those who like more fighting and definitely more cool gadgets to detect the much-feared cosmic radiation.

The silver surfer has a girlfriend, which like..weird to me. So where is his gf at? I don’t understand.

Hmm..but okay lah..this movie out of 5 stars, I give it a 2 cause’ the length of movie is damn short for my delight.

Okay..dun start getting annoyed with my complaining again.I cant it. My life just went way damn worse again! I tot my horrible results, my loss of friends was already a headache to me..but bingo! More problems came out. Now my brother went for the stupid army checkup and they were suspicious of his heart, someting abt maybe a hole in his heart and he needs to go re-check up again at Alexandra Hospital. Hooray! He may go to PES C and at least it is not so bad but damn it! He has heart problems and I am not happy about it. My mom’s cousin dies from a hole in his heart and what the hell…and for me, I never going to take health for granted again. I need to go check-up again..for some health problems and I am very worry. Ya…so Fan-tastic.

Yeah..looks like God is trying to tame me till I die…because I tink back again, though after each setback I regain my steps, but there are too many downs in my life. I tink I have experienced alot in life. Like relationship etc etc, that it makes me kind of scared of life now. I am quite afraid of Monday my brother test report, and worst, will my other twin brother suffer the same problem? Is it genetic first? I am scared. Scared for my whole health too.

Okay gal..pull urselves up, smile and hope for the best!

Today is really my worst day of my life. I tink I lost 3 frends.

I got back my sucky results..and it was so unexpected because it was sucky to the core and I tot I did well..and I ended up crying alot cause’ I cant believe what has happen to me. I hated God for doing this to me. I hated myself. I cry myself till I had stomachache and vomitted. I know it is wrong to take results too seriously but I am not crying over the results, I am crying cause’ it is so unexpected and that in the end, after 20 years of my life, I havent yet discovered what I am best in.

Worst come to come, I am sure to lost my scholarship for sure cause of my sucky results. And I hate to tell my dad, cause’ he already has worked so hard. I dun wan him to work any harder. I hate that feeling. I hate the feeling of breaking his hope and heart…but I cant, I have tried my best and I failed yet again.

Worst thing of my life is that I missed the birthday outing organised by Dan, cj and Duck, my 3 best frends and it was because of my selfish act that cancel the outing that I was realli waiting forward to. But I didnt go because I am sick cause’ I dun wan to spoil their mood. But who knows..cj and Dan turn up at my house and give me the present. They were really very nice to me. Yet, because of me…I prayed to God really, I havent lost my 3 frends I hope.

I don’t think I will be really able to sleep tonight and I feel dizzy, confused and scared. I tink losing these 3 frendsof my life is worse than my sucky results.

It’s funny cause’ yesterday I was very happy cause’ I finally solved the problem between JH and me and now, more problems come in.

I really dunnoe how and what to do now…I wish wish that I could turn back time…and hope they would forgive me. I really really really hope. And, I am cryin again. Seems like crying the whole night is the only thing I can do…