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Ok, I have enough of these kind of people found in Singapore. They are ridiculous, and all high almightly people. Today, I encountered one of that irritating kind. They make me so furious.

Went to Ikea with xiuyun today to accompany her to buy photo frames. She wanted to check how much points there were in the Ikea "Friends Card" which was given by her bf’s sister and this was the first time she had ever used the card. The machine required her to slot in her card but we didnt know that the stupid bloodly OLD woman had her card in the slot so XY wanted to slot in. She shouted " MY CARD IS INSIDE!" XY quickly apologised to her and she continued with her bloodly scolding at her EVEN after apology.

Yes, she belonged to the group of the once english-educated society of Singapore that was ONCE "SUPPOSED" to be high-ranking people of society. I realised that these people are usually females or should I say that those I encountered are females. It makes me ponder why they always have such attitude problems. Is it because that they are having menopause, that is the hormones taking control over them? Or is it that they still live in the illusion that they are still the top of the ladder? It is true that my parents are chinese-educated people but their actions are more civilised that those english-educated bitches. Anyway, these english-educated bitches are top only in the colonised period. These people are replaced by other groups of people so quit their stupid bitching as though they are so damn great.

After that woman walked away, I turned to XY and exclaimed loudly "Crazy, PMS man".

We, are now top of the ladder my dear old women, despite our parents were below, so get a life.

I re-watched the movie "If only" again, which my bf had given me for vday. It still makes me cry alot. It is an awfully meaningful movie that leaves me tinking. Some quotes are " It doesn’t matter whether you are given 5 minutes or 50 minutes, as long as you love fully then this is all that matters", and "It doesnt matters what happened in the past, what matters is only now".

He is leaving sg in just about 2 weeks time and who knows when would I see him again. I just hope that I could love him fully, because as the show says, it doesnt matter whether he is here in sg for 2 weeks or forever, I just need to show him my love for him after so much he had done for me.

Life is just confusing as to devoting time for ur loved ones or to work. It is not easy to achieve both.

People,treasure ur loved ones.

I have no idea why but I feel so depressed. Feel like crying today. Infact, cried twice over stupid matters. It is not because of studies, because exams had been over. But was over few issues that left me feeling demoralised and disappointed.

First is my 21st bdae. I requested not to have a party. But to me, 21st bdae was just a normal day, with nth unusual because my mom was sick, my sis was busy with her work, my bro was in camp while the other with my dad were busy. But they asked me to find a place to eat. First ting first, I dunnoe why it bothers me so much, it is stupid but seems like it is my bdae but I am the one doing the searching. And, I have no cake because everyone is busy, so my mom asked me to buy one myself. Secondly, I have driving lessons, i regretted cancelling a few on the day itself cause I had a normal lunch and my bf was busy with work. My bros didnt even bother asking or wishing me. Some of my few close friends forgot my bdae, yet I am glad that those not close to me wished me as well. I feel upset that it was my bdae but I had to plan everyting! Their bdae, I planned and searched and wished them. What abt mine?! I hated this bloodly feeling. Maybe I am too sensitive or just making tings out of nth, but I hate this un-special 21st. Whatever.

Maybe this makes it big because of my driving lessons. I took 4 lessons the whole day and it upsets me that I did badly for all, those immediate fail kind, when I tried so hard. Worst, next week is my test. I hate hate hate this kind of feeling!

It comes worse that I kept telling myself that it is okie to fail, but I just hate it when I tried so hard, yet end up like shit. I kept telling myself to take tings easy, but I cant convince myself.  To add on, my bf is leaving sg in like 2 weeks time and I have no idea when he would be back to sg esp when his family is in Dubai. Why? Why? Why?!

XJ, please please please,take tings easy. Please….