worst day of my life
Today is really my worst day of my life. I tink I lost 3 frends.
I got back my sucky results..and it was so unexpected because it was sucky to the core and I tot I did well..and I ended up crying alot cause’ I cant believe what has happen to me. I hated God for doing this to me. I hated myself. I cry myself till I had stomachache and vomitted. I know it is wrong to take results too seriously but I am not crying over the results, I am crying cause’ it is so unexpected and that in the end, after 20 years of my life, I havent yet discovered what I am best in.
Worst come to come, I am sure to lost my scholarship for sure cause of my sucky results. And I hate to tell my dad, cause’ he already has worked so hard. I dun wan him to work any harder. I hate that feeling. I hate the feeling of breaking his hope and heart…but I cant, I have tried my best and I failed yet again.
Worst thing of my life is that I missed the birthday outing organised by Dan, cj and Duck, my 3 best frends and it was because of my selfish act that cancel the outing that I was realli waiting forward to. But I didnt go because I am sick cause’ I dun wan to spoil their mood. But who knows..cj and Dan turn up at my house and give me the present. They were really very nice to me. Yet, because of me…I prayed to God really, I havent lost my 3 frends I hope.
I don’t think I will be really able to sleep tonight and I feel dizzy, confused and scared. I tink losing these 3 frendsof my life is worse than my sucky results.
It’s funny cause’ yesterday I was very happy cause’ I finally solved the problem between JH and me and now, more problems come in.
I really dunnoe how and what to do now…I wish wish that I could turn back time…and hope they would forgive me. I really really really hope. And, I am cryin again. Seems like crying the whole night is the only thing I can do…
