Devastated
What can I sae? I have totally no mood to study. I am worried. And have cried myself tired. Tomorrow is the dae we send Likai off. I am going to send him off though I realli cant bear to.
Life is realli unpredictable. Anything unexpected can happen. We all are still in shocked. If he had passed away due to illness, at least, we had already braced ourselves ready for it. But, no, he passed away cause’ of an accident. My mom broke down, and I broke down.
At least, I learnt a lesson out of it. Treasure everyone around u. Every single one. Dun make any enemies in life. Life is realli short and unpredictable. At least if one dae someting happened to u, u noe that u had told ur loved ones around u how much u loved them and u have done the tings u wan to do in life. Like this, it may not be tat painful.
I noe tat crying is no use. Wat’s done is done. It’s the past. But, it’s really hard to get over it. The shock, the hope for miracle, hope that everyting was just a dream hang over us. Who would tink that such an unfortunate event would occur? And in such a short time.
Life is really precious. Dun give urselves up just over a small matter such as money. No matter how much money u have in this world, u cant buy life. At least u can buy happiness but definitely not life. Life is wat is given to u by God. Each person is equal with one life. But u control ur own life. God dun control ur life.
All of us hope to turn back the hands of the clock, to prevent such accident. We lived in miracle and devastation. It will probably take us the whole lifetime to try to recover somehow.
None of us slept last night. Neither did I. I am mentally tired but I kept tinking of him in my mind. Pondering how he is now, hoping and praying that he is happy in the other world.
So people, do treasure people around u. Love them with all ur heart.
November 20th, 2006 at 8:19 am
Be strong, be strong…xj. I am with you…and thank you for reminding me of such important lessons and values in life. I love you too dear friend. With all my heart.
November 21st, 2006 at 2:46 am
xiaojun..happened to browse thru n read ur entry. i understand..be strong girl, im sure ur cousin wans everyone to be happy n wans u to do well in life too. take a break for a day if u like then let him be ur motivation to study hard for finals. all the best girl, cya on sat
*hugs*
December 10th, 2006 at 6:17 am
Xiao Jun, hope you are all right.
This yr has been a different one for me too. My grandma passed away after battling with cancer for 5 yrs. I did not visit her for maybe 10 yrs due to some family problems, I regret not visiting her more often when she was in the hospice. Perhaps that would be my greatest regret this yr. So girl, u must be be strong.