Life’s tough
If there is a curve of life plotted, this will definitely be my lowest point of my life where everyting is in chaos. I learnt that hard work is useless in Uni. I learn that life in uni is definitely not a piece of cake for me. I learn tat I am losing in the competition despite my long hours of training. I learnt that love is never easy to compromise and to appreciate. I am really my lowest level of my life.
They saes that hard work is the essence of a competition. They are wrong. I always used to believe that hard work pays but now, I dont believe and don’t trust what they says. I learn it in a hard way.
I am tired of complaining. I am tired of trying to bang my head on the wall to be smarter. I am tired of failing tests. I am. But it’s seems to be common in my life till I am too tired to bother about it.
I am tired to hear him complain of going out. I am tired of hearing my mom’s naggings still ringing in my ears.
All these were never present in my life. But, yet, they seem to materialise from nowhere.
If I have a dream or a hope, I know someone is out there to pierce my dreams. To mock at me. To laughed at my stupidity. But yet, I persist on.
I want to be happi. But I cant bring myself to motivate me to be happy cause’ I know that this is probably my most crucial point of life.
God..pls give me strength and hope. 
October 13th, 2006 at 9:06 am
Hey gal,
Well, you are undergoing a tough phase of adjusting to Uni life. I know it’s not ez but some people need more time to adjust than others. I have been through it and I find everything tough at first until a certain time, I get accustommed to the pace and routine of uni life does things start to get better for me. Be opptismistic and always look things on the bright side , need help just drop me a msg in msn or email. Take care.
October 14th, 2006 at 8:23 am
People do say, that when you think its the lowest point in your life, things WILL GET BETTER, cuz after all, it can’t get any worse, right? If there is a curve of life plotted, I hope that it would be x to the power of a extremely big number, so this point in ur life will last only a short duration and things will take a turn for the better very, very soon. It really isn’t easy to weather all the odds against you at this point in time, but you know it deep down that you have to, and will persevere. So, really, you have to keep going by thinking positive and believing in urself, that you got what it takes to change the tide. And of course, God will be there for you to guide you along. Cuz after all, if He brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Hugs, my dear.